I am a WIFE now...

Dearie me, does it not make me sound ancient?? Well, I absolutely love being married and that's probably just the way it should be, right? ;)

The day was fabulous. Lots of friends and family and not to mention Love and Laughter. Yes, it was probably as nauseatingly "cute" as it sounds. Husband kept on tearing up in church and I just kept laughing at him as he was the one who wasn't "too bothered about the whole marriage thing" as it should not make a difference [true]. But, he did say it meant so much more than he could ever have imagined. I know, that it was seeing our little Boy walking down the aisle next to his cousin that set Husband of.

There's nothing that I would change - not the stress with the soloist cancelling 10 days before or finding a new one, not the hassle/stress with so called friends who kept demanding to be picked up/dropped off at the train station the day before or the day after our wedding (although I'm still pretty upset with them) or anything else, for that matter.

My parents had worked the beeee-hiiinds off to get it spot on and they were worried I wouldn't like the decorations. They needn't have worried as it was perfect. Everything was something that was personal to us, something that showed who we were. Others might not have gotten everything but who cares? It was our wedding, not theirs. Birches, moss, pinecones (I am a country girl through and through) and so on and  so on.

So, would I do it again?

Heck, NO!

Vegas is always an option....  ;)

I doubt I'll write here again but it was fun while it lasted even though the posts are far and few between.

Ta Ta xx

Getting Excited!

Boyfriend arrived yesterday but I didn't get to see him as my sister, cousins and a couple of friends kidnapped me on a hen-do. It was great fun. I got a massage at a spa, we did loads of fun things. I scraped my knee so I am glad I am wearing a long dress on Saturday or I would have made it more noticeable by wearing a cartoon plaster. That's me.
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Anyhow, Boyfriend and I just sorted a few things out. Like the favours and I am getting more and more excited. The things that were sort of getting messed up - soloist having to cancel - are sorting themselves out and I spoke to the new soloist today and I cannot thank her enough for doing this on such short notice. One of my cousins have also worked her arse off to find a new girl as she recommended the first one and luckily she also knows a lot more people around here so she knew of this new girl. But it hasn't been easy for her and I'll make sure she knows I know and appreciate it all.

And just to top it all. Baby N pooped on the patio today. I must say I am glad it was on the patio and not in the pool. It would have taken longer to clean up all the toys and the pool... And yet I am really excited.

I

AM

GETTING

MARRIED

THIS

SATURDAY!!


Christ on a Bike...

En två tre, en två tre

Så ja, klädseln är fixad för Brud och Brudgum (och några av de barn som ska vara med), programmet är påbörjat, bröllopstårtorna avsmakade och as we speak håller vi på och tränar bröllopsdansen.

Inte lång tid kvar nu...

Snart dags!

Idag är det exakt en månad kvar tills jag blir fru Grefven :-) Det mesta är fixat men kvar är fluga till Grefven, bordsplaceringar, smaka tårtan och skriva ut program. Och att närvara vid Ems bröllop helgen innan förstås :-)

Engelsk artighet

Ar sa less pa folk som inte kan RSVP:a. Detta galler framst [endast] vara engelska "vanner" da alla svenska gaster svarat i tid. Det ar en jakla skillnad pa "Oh, yes I'm planning to come" och "Yes, I am coming". Det forsta foreslar att de ska kolla sa att de kan komma dvs. jobb, flyg etc etc. och det andra uttrycket att de faktiskt kommer.

Nu vill jag inte att ni tror jag ar en bridezilla vad galler det har - jag tycker det ar helt OK om folk inte kan komma da det ar en bit att aka, det kostar en del pengar, maste kanske ta ledigt en dag. Men varfor inte saga om de kan eller inte?? Sista anmalningsdatum kom och gick och endast ett fatal svarade. Vi har skickat mail, smsat men nanemen.

Vad galler saken ar ocksa att vi ordnat ett riktigt bra pris pa vandrarhem/B&B for dem som vill och det har ju folk givetvis tyckt varit bra. Allt for att underlatta deras resa da det inte finns manga alternativ i skogarna runt min hemby. Men. Tror ni de svarat da vi bett om detaljer for hur manga natter/rum etc till ett visst datum? Nej. i Sondags skickade vi, ett for oss, sista mail, och vi har fatt 2 svar och vet ni vad svaren sa? Jo, att de garna vill bo pa det stallet vi fixat ett bra pris for (vi far betala underskottet). Men tror ni att de svarar pa nar de kommer/aker??

AAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!

David tycker jag ska sluta stressa men ar det sa latt? Jag tycker inte vi ska behova BE om svar - ar det inte sa att man ar glad och 'hedrad' over att bli tillfragad om man vill dela sina vanners enormt viktiga dag? Det blir i alla fall jag!

Vi har nagra vanner som fragat om de kan lamna svar lite senare vad galler att komma och det ar da pga att de har precis fatt och ska fa barn (skulle fatt i fredags) - och det ar helt forstaeligt och inga problem for oss da de latit oss veta detta i god tid.

Som sagt, jag tycker det ar helt ok om man inte kan komma - alla har ett eget liv att leva och det ar ju inget tvang att komma men man kan val for faen saga det da??

Jag ar sa enormt besviken pa dessa vanner som vi ofta hjalpt med bade det ena och det andra och speciellt nar man forstar hur lite de vardesatter nagot som ar sa betydelsefullt for oss.

Ja ja, jag ar val lite for kanslig for att ordna med sant har, men ledsen blir jag allt. Och stressad och kan darmed inte sova sa det ar darfor detta skrivs klockan 5 pa morgonen vilket betyder att Baby N snart slar upp sina bla for annu en fartfylld dag. Jag ska forsoka sluta stressa, det viktigaste ar ju trots allt att Baby N och David ar en del av mitt liv.

Countdown

Just a little more than a month to go and I am bricking it at the same time as I am sort of feeling a lassiez faire type of attitude. It's a very weird feeling.

Anyhow - have quite a few things I have to send to Sweden or maybe I should just pack an extra suitcase and take the fine at the check-in... Sooo much stuff. And then there's the stuff for Baby N and Boyfriend. Although I think Boyfriend will have to carry his own stuff when he arrived 10 days after me. And all the boutonnieres that we have bought. Isn't Etsy just the pip?

At the moment I am taking the opportunity to have a morning snooze in my armchair. I can't think when I had the chance to do that last. or was it Friday? ;)

It ain't heavy, it's my dress

It's the first one I chose and paid for but the third one to enter this very household.

You may ask "huh?". And if I hadn't done this myself, then I'd say so too. You see, I bought this dress but then had a panic as I knew it wouldn't get here until July (I thought mid/late) which, if it was totally wrong, could be a disaster and I'd end up wearing something I'd have to pick out the day before and therefore get married in an ill fitting, ugly dress. So to at least have a back up dress I would be happy to wear, I decided I needed an extra. So I bought two.

Yes, two.

Out of those two, one was absolutely a wearable, make-me-feel-pretty-and-flattering dress. I'd only need to alter the length and the colour is very nice -dark ivory. The other one was very pretty and all that but when I put it on, it just felt wrong. But as it turns out I won't need any of those two dresses because THE DRESS arrived today!!

It's so pretty, oh so pretty (and heavy) and it just needs a bit of tweaking to get the perfect fit but it's so right... and just how it looked on the picture. Baby N smiled when I quickly tried it on and I chose to take that as a "oh-mamma-you're-the-prettiest-girl-ever-and-I'll-never-find-a-girl-that's-as-good-and-pretty-as-you" and not "oh-dear-lord-I'd-better-smile-and-then-go-in-for-the-kill-to-save-the-world-from-such-hideousness" in a Stewie Griffin kind of way. It's easy when he doesn't really talk.

I won't look like the girl on the picture but very few people do anyway as she's stunning (think Mila Kunis but taller). I just know that I am very happy and I will feel pretty walking towards the love of my life (Baby N) and my husband-to-be (whatever his name is).

Now... those darned shoes!!

Nya skor...igen.

Skorna jag hade tankt kopa struntar jag nog i. Jag tog beslutet att det var for mycket pengar for att chansa pa ett par skor fran USA iom annorlunda storlekar da "true to size" inte sager sa mycket nar man inte kan prova dem innan. Det vore ju for j-a typiskt att de skulle vara ett halvt nummer for sma eller alldeles for stora (vintertjocka sulor kanns ju inte helt ratt). Och, trots att jag hela tiden papekat att "man kan ha dem till en massa andra klader" sa vet jag inte om jag kommer anvanda dem igen och da blir det way too much money - aven om en del sager att man inte ska snala nar det galler ens brollop sa behover man ju inte bli helt sjovild heller.

Nu ska jag leta efter att par har i England och hoppas pa det basta.

Annars sa borjar allt falla pa plats. Ska bara forsoka fa tag pa kantorn (svara manniska!) igen ang den engelska psalmen.

x

Let there be shoes

Det kan hända att jag hittat The Bröllopssko. Den är helt galen, helt andra färger än jag tänkt och gör att jag får tänka om allt men jag tror jag är kär.

Och ja, den är hemlig fram till bröllopet :p

Inspirationsvägg

Jag har börjat göra en inspirationsvägg inför bröllopet. Grefven rådde mig till att välja tre stora magnettavlor som vi nu satt upp i lilla rummet - där har jag sedan börjat sätta upp bilder och urklipp från olika bröllopstidningar på allt som kan ge inspiration och idéer (eller som bara är vackert).

Bild kommer snart...

Stora steg framåt

Har spanat på Mirandas bröllop i Sex and the city (hennes bröllop är min inspiration till det utomhus "höst"bröllop som jag hoppas vi får), har bläddrat i x antal tidningar för att hitta inspiration till brudfrisyr (ska äntligen få klippa mig lite idag - bara fem månader sedan sist...) och jag har googlat på de blommor jag vill ha.

Grefven har ritat upp en skalenlig modell av ladan vi ska ha festen i och vi har kommit fram till att vi kan få plats med alla gäster. Men det blir trångt. Typ.

Jag vi har också börjat fundera över önskelista och den ska snart publiceras på vår bröllopssida.

Vid det här laget borde också de flesta inbjudningar ha kommit fram - hurra för att gästerna älskar inbjudningskortet lika mycket som jag gör!

Vi är på väg

Då har inbjudningskorten börjat dimpa ned hos folk. Inte hos alla dock, Grefven har inte fått ordning på alla namn och adresser ännu. Inte jag heller...

Visst ska vi gifta oss

Jodå, det ska fortfarande bli bröllop här också, men vardagen har kommit emellan och bröllopsplanerandet läggs åt sidan. Inbjudningarna är på gång - allt är fixat förutom utskrifterna... Jag gillar verkligen våra inbjudningskort så jag vill verkligen få skicka ut dem snart.

Bröllopsbudgeten verkar hålla iaf, vi har redan sparat ihop mer än budgetplanen hade tänkt - detta tack vare att vi jobbat såpass mycket att det inte funnits ork och tid att spendera pengarna...

Jag längtar nu till påsk- och sommarlovet så bröllopsplanerandet sätts igång ordentligt.

Still on

it's been a bit slow re. updates here for a while and I don't know about Miss E but I have had lots of other things on my mind. Not to mention that travelling, illness and now beautiful spring weather has kept me away.

The wedding is still on. Although I might be down to one flowergirl instead of two as Boyfriend's niece is very ill at the moment. I'm not bothered as long as she gets better.

Have still not bought a dress. *panic starting to set in*

The invites are ready to be produced and I have finally sorted out wording for those who are to go to Swedish guests. I know that I could just have them all in English but I am Swedish and my grandmother is 94 and I think she would appreciate one that she understands. Boyfriend's parents saw the invites the last time they were here and they were impressed that we'd done them ourselves so that's nice.

I just need to update the info-blog regarding where people can stay [cheaply]. It'll be in the middle of nowhere but that's how the cookie crumbles.

Toodles.

Ringed

Had babysitters yesterday so Boyfriend and I went out to look at rings. Obviously we went to the same place we got my engagement ring. It's fab and they're sooo lovely there it feels like you're popping in to see great friends.

I had a look at a few but came back to one I'd seen when I got the E R and I quickly decided that it was The One.

Boyfriend, on the other hand, is not used to wearing rings (thank God) so needed a bit more time to try different types to find the one he wanted. he picked one that's the male version of mine (no stones) and slightly larger as it's 6mm compared to mine which is 3mm (but will be 6mm together with the E R). In the end he had 2 he was choosing between. He had one on his right hand and the other on his left hand, He looked at the one on his right and said "this is more masculine" and picked the one on his left.

The shopgirl and I laughed - a lot.

Nedräkning

Idag är det exakt 6 månader kvar till jag blir fru. Börjar kännas bättre och bättre :-)

What's in a name?

Grefven ringde under lunchen idag och berättade att vigselförrättare är bokad. Spännande... Det börjar bli dags i att tag i det där med efternamn. Lite problem på den fronten an man väl säga då ingen av oss vill ta den andras efternamn, vi vill inte ha olika namn och vi har inga fantastiska, intressanta släktnamn att välja bland.

Åh dessa bekymmer!

Tra la la så intressant

Bröllopsplanering - vem kom på nå't så dumt? Och hur fasiken orkar Grefven göra det dagarna i ända på jobbet?

Min åsikt är att det suger.

Meanwhile, on the other side of town...

I've written a wedding related post on my other blog.
Be warned, strong language occurs.

Great Minds Think Alike

It seems like Miss E and I have spent today doing the very same things! Isn't that funny? We went to find the right stuff for the invitations and got what we wanted, whadd'ya know?! We've already decided the style and wording for the invites so it's basically just to "do it" but first....

...it's time to send out the Save the Date Cards to my "homies" i.e. the ones living in Sweden. The English guests have already received theirs but they might need a tiinsy winsy bit more time to plan and book flights etc. So if everything goes to plan I'll post the StDC tomorrow. Finally!

Update: of course it didn't happen... Baby N was very unhappy so a big part of the night went to try to get him back to sleep. Once he was "down" it was time for Boyfriend and I to have dinner - we're talking nine-ish here and as it was quite a heavy meal it meant we spent the rest of the evening on the sofa watching recorded episodes of Boardwalk Empire. Maybe tonight...

Full fart framåt

Idag ska det bröllopsplaneras - inbjudningskorten ska skissas upp, gästlistan ska färdigställas, önskelista ska påbörjas, bubbel ska drickas och toastmaster ska utses.

Nu börjar det på riktigt!

Budget schmudget

Nu börjar det bli dags att se över bröllopsbudgeten och gästlistan igen. Det kändes bra att kolla budgeten och inse att vi kunde dra bort ca 15 000 i utgifter! Det kändes också bra att se hur mycket jag hade räknat med att få lägga på brudklädsel och se att nu när jag hittat klänning kunde jag dra bort några tusen där med.

Me will be cheap bride ;p

F**k This Shit...

...tankte jag i Fredags nar jag fick ett anfall av panik over hur vi [jag] ska hinna med [orka] gora inbjudningarna sjalva coh fa ivag dem i tid och gora allt annat. Boyfriend sag min doda blick och fragade om jag vill skita i allt och sticka ivag till Samoa och gifta oss dar istallet. Inga inbjudningskort. Ingen klannings[vikt]-angest och inget javla ansvar pa att ordna allt och forsoka tanka pa allt och alla andra.

Samoa - paradiset pa jorden och dar jag, en sydsvensk bonnatos, kande att jag hittat mitt andra hem.

pic from here

Mr Darcy på mitt bröllop

Klart jag ska ha Darcy-konfetti på bröllopet! Beställda från Etsy.


Och likadana fast från Shakespeare klickades också med...

Miss E's Turning Up the Heat

Christ Almighty, as if I wasn't feeling a tad bit stressed about finding a dress before, I f-ing well am now!!

I might take up smoking. I've heard that people light up a cigarette when they get stressed. + if I start, I can stop and that will apparently save me loads of money. That's what they say anyway.

Please hand me a paperbag...

Update: as Miss E pointed out that I'd gain weight if I stopped smoking, it made me remember that alot of models etc smoke to stay thin... I'm not a model but am I wrong in thinking that taking up smoking wouldn't be so bad - for just a little while? ;)

Galen head piece

Hrm... Ska jag ha den här på huvudet kanske? Med en flamingo i?


Bild hittat här på Etsy

Back on track

Guess what?

Jag har blivit pepp inför bröllopet igen. Hurra!!!

Nu kan jag stå brud!

Jag har köpt bröllopsklänningen idag. Och en fin kappa att ha till ifall det är kallt. Allt vintage och mycket prisvärt.

Klänningen hittades av Camilla (min bröllopsfotograf) och Missy och jag fick inte gå ifrån affären förrän jag köpt den, så jag var ju tvungen att lyssna på dem. Ska bara göra en liten ändring så är jag nöjd.

Då så. Spännande. Ska vänja mig vid att se mig själv i gammaldags vaniljvit klänning. Ska också hitta färgglada skor och accessoarer till.

Drömmen

I en bröllopstidning hittade jag förra året Klänningen jag vill ha. Tyvärr finns den inte längre att köpa så mitt mål är att hitta något som liknar den. Kanske i annan färg. Vi får se.
Klänningen är från Ilse Jacobsen

Snart så...

När vi startade den här bloggen var jag helt manisk - jag åt, sov och andades bröllopsplanering. Men så en dag så försvann allt, luften gick ur mig och jag blev väldigt anti, vill inte planera, orkar inte bry mig. Jag är fortfarande nere i svackan men jag och Grefven pratar mycket om det och nu till helgen ska jag ta med mig några vänner och ut och leta inspiration i Vintageaffärer. Jag tror det mesta löser sig om jag bara kan bestämma/hitta vad jag ska ha på mig.

Så. Positive thinking!

To Tan or Not To Tan

Apparently, it is in vogue to be as pale as possible when getting married. And we're talking vampire-meet-the-redhead-(the prettiest)-in-Girls-Aloud - kind of pale. Yes, that pale!

I also don't think that it has anything to do with the thinning of the ozone-layer, it's just the way 2011 brides are supposed to look.

The thing is that I really, really won't be able to wear anything white-ish if I don't tan up a bit. Not only will it help to make me look thinner* but it will also help guests see where the dress ends and skin begins. I guess they'd be able to if they got a bit closer as the blue tint of veins shining through the skin would be a give away but highly unpleasant no matter how fashionable it is.

I just hope that there will be sufficient sunshine to get a bit of colour** but I think there should be, it's not as if I'll sit inside longing to get off work to be able to go outside. So beware, the tiniest chance of sunshine and I'll run outside to "catch it". I will have to the end of August...

What about the rest of you? Pale or Tan?

Picture sourced from here

*I will obviously be a size 0 by then but still....

** I do live in England

Photo Phobia

I may look like s*** on photos (obviously also in real life) but I am so so so so so so so so so SO happy that Camilla Sundberg is going to be our photographer!

I just had another look at her website and I just love what she does and how she does it.

Yeay for Camilla and Yeay for Miss E and I who will both get our pictures taken by Camilla!

Phew!

Ahhh - had a moment [a day or two] of panic when everything seemed to just be falling apart. We're talking about the colour scheme here, not the relationship between Boyfriend and I.

It started with me slightly questioning my choice of colour as I couldn't think of any nice, simple, affordable [the thought of importing Japanese miniature maple trees did cross my mind] centerpieces/flowers/accents that would suit the scheme I had picked. And when Boyfriend reminded me of what colour he want his tie to be...! Tears, 3 minute ulcers and migraine were all threatening to jump on me all at once.

But!

After some rational thinking, calming down, some alone time [couldn't pester Boyfriend as he was not at home] and most importantly of all - I went back to the SOURCE! The mother of all decorative inspiration and the ability to showcase what is right for me [us] and I'm back on track. Same colour-scheme as before - just slightly updated. The florist better be able to deliver on this now...

I am calm, cool* and collected again.

Thank you MARTHA STEWART!

*this is questionable as I never was one of the cool ones... but I've done pretty alright for myself.

Back to Square 1

I though I was most definitely, totally 100% decided on colour scheme for the reception but had a total turnaround yesterday so am no longer so sure which takes me back to square 1 as it'll affect flowers, and the little things....

Gaaaaaaaaaarrrrrgh!! or just plain good ole' shit.

Shit.

Kalla fötter?

Bröllopet. Ja du, det går upp och ned med mitt bröllopsintresse. Jag hade en liten manisk period i december då jag bara kunde tänka på bröllopet och det faktum att jag inte hittat klänning eller annat ännu. Sedan insåg jag att det inte är förrän september vi gifter och och jag lugnade ner mig.

Nu börjar jag tänka igen men nu känns allt bara blä. Jag har inget emot äktenskap, jag anser mig redan vara gift med Grefven men själva bröllopet skrämmer mig. Jag gillar inte ens att fira födelsedagen - det är ju påtvingad uppmärksamhet. Samma sak med ett bröllop - vare sig man vill eller inte så finns det sociala krav på ett bröllop. Bruden ska vara det vackraste hon någonsin varit, festen ska vara fantastisk, alla ska ha trevligt osv. När jag har funderat bröllop har jag tänkt mig jag och Grefven ensamma ute i en skog nånstans. Två vittnen (fotografen är ett av dem) och en snubbe som gifter oss. Det räcker för mig. Enkel klädsel, kanske bara en söt vanlig klänning och ett par coola skor.

Istället blir det världens fest med lite över 100 pers. Grefven älskar fest och han har en otroligt stor familj och massvis med vänner. Visst kan vi iofs gifta oss själva innan festen - men ska vi ändå ha den där stora festen kan vi lika väl gifta oss samma dag. Jag får väl ta några glas bubbel innan...

Iaf, förlåt det långa inlägget. Behövde skriva av mig. Jag tror det blir bättre när jag väl kommit på vad f***n jag ska ha på mig. Inte brudklänning iaf.

Ring My Bell

It's time to make it official - the whole losing weight thing... I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. But I hate being flabby and fat even more so I have no choice, really. Gyms are not for me. I get bored faster than I can get on the exercise bike and all fit and toned people who make it look so effortless makes me ashamed of myself and I just want to leave.

Anyhow. We've got a super nice rowing machine at home and it's now easy to get to it as Boyfriend's office has been cleared of various music equipment/junk. And I'm also thinking of buying a 6kg kettlebell (will buy an 8kg one if I like it) to do some exercises.

So, with the rowing, walking Baby N and kettlebelling, I must be able to shift (lose) weight or there's something seriously wrong. Obviously I am also thinking about the type of food I'm eating, more protein and not as much carbs...

I need to point out that it's not just because of the wedding I'm doing this. It's because I know I will feel better about myself. But the wedding is definitely a boost.

On Top of My Head

My grandmother, on my mother's side, came from a noble family and with that certain "rights" (I guess you can call it that) that also are "my rights". One of those would be to be allowed to wear a 2.4kg silver crown and jewellery that belongs to the crown all belonging to Ebba Brahe. My grandmother wore it on her wedding day, my mom and my aunt wore it on theirs. When my sister was to say "I do" they contacted the church where it's held and were told that due to age and wear and tear the crown and the other stuff were no longer to be used - even though by law they could not say no to us. Anyway, my sister decided not to as it was too fragile to risk it and wore another more modern one with MASSIVE* pearls instead. Very pretty.

Though it is a bit sad that we cannot use the crown I must say that I would only have worn it because it would have been lovely to continue the tradition. I would not have picked it out myself as it's a bit too ornate for my taste and I can only imagine the strain of wearing such a heavy thing on my head and trying to have fun. I'd probably cry for a paracetamol when I should be saying "I do".

I might see if I can wear the same crown my sister had or I might wear a type of bridal fascinator or nothing at all. I've seen a fascinator that I'd love to wear and it's stunning. I'd have to import it from the US though and it'd cost a lot but it's very, very pretty and it would be a little bit different to what people would ordinarily wear, so that would be neat.

But It's sort of coming together now. My mom is impressed by how much I've sorted out/decided on as I am usually a last minute kind of girl.

*we're talking 2cm+ in diameter

Shoes

As I've said before, it's a bloody minefield when it comes to picking shoes but I've spotted a cute pair. I'm not saying I'll buy them but they're cute and you get the whole "...something blue..." sorted.

Cute Shoes Here

Never mind that it looks as if the lady [on the video] is trying to get gum off the shoes alt. being a total "ijjet" when it comes to modelling shoes...

Have I? Have I?!

I think I might have found THE dress...

Oh yeah!